In the midst of all my sadness...

God sends me visitors to remind me of how special life can be.

Life isn't always fair...

I've spent the biggest part of the evening contemplating life and how unfair it really is to some. Why is it that some people never seem to get a break from the down side of life? Who is it and why do they decide that certain people shouldn't get a chance to sit back and enjoy life as most of us know it? I can't and I won't believe that the God that I feel exists would ever put this on anyone (especially those so undeserving). As I'm writing this I have two family members fighting for their lives and the irony of it is that they seem to have always been fighting. Maybe not always fighting for their lives, but fighting for inner peace, for better lives, for what they deserve. Why them again? There's no answer and as much as I'd like to think that there is a reason for all their suffering, I can't imagine any answer that would be worth all of what they have been handed. I can only pray that if they take their last breath that God will grant them the eternal happiness that they seemed to never find during their earth bound journey. Aunt Barbara and Timmy, we love you, both, and want you healthy and happy.