Too Many Choices

I know what most of you are going to say before I even begin typing this blog. "You can never have too many choices!" It's like a broken record that keeps playing in my head, over and over and over again. However, for someone like me - someone who can only function "normally" with defined structure and routine in their life - too many choices becomes overwhelming. I joke about this being an issue that I associate with my touch of bi-polar disease (not officially diagnosed, but I would bet my last dime on it!), but this is a debilitating issue for me. When I am faced with important delimmas and there are choices that I have to make regarding these, I tend to go into defensive mode. I think of 5 million reasons why the change would not be beneficial to me. Someone on the outside would hear my reasons and laugh at how petty they were. I would try to explain how the slightest change in my routine can cause me to shut down and not want to interact with the world any more. They would say that we all have those moments. I would say that when I am taken out of my comfort zone then I tend to feel like I need to escape - not only from the issue at hand, but everything: myself, my family, my job, etc. (Now don't get excited. I'm not going anywhere. I'm just trying to help you understand how my mind works.) I just wish there was a magic button that I could push that would just make the decision for me. Even better would be a magic button that would help everyone else see how my mind works. Maybe then they would understand that some of us just aren't built for life that keeps changes lanes. Some of us are quite content (and actually prefer) our every day, simple, scheduled life.